Wow. You all are so great! What great responses. Thank you! I'm sorry I didn't get back here to respond sooner, but your comments really helped me. It also helped that I have a student who wants to enter a contest and I had to work on arrangements for her. (plus, she's only 11 and she's awesome, and I want to be able to keep up with her! Lol). Deciding on music and arrangements for her got me intrigued with going back to some of my earlier arrangements to make them more advanced, as well working on some pieces I'd previously written/arranged/mastered, that had gotten very dusty and rusty. (One of them is "All I Ask Of You" from Phantom of the Opera. Stairway to Heaven is on my "songs I want to learn" list.
) I also think, as Jeffn mentioned, that I had some clutter and baggage to clear out so I could move on with my music. That seems to be resolving itself. Hallelujah!
I am most grateful for all of you and the Everything Dulcimer community. You never let me down when I come here for help and information. I saved all of your suggestions for future reference. My goal now is to get the rust out of my playing and do some videos, and then to get out an play more in public. I hope to find others to play with. I don't really like soloing, but would love being part of a group.